Happy Friday to you all!
I have a confession of sorts today. So here goes.
I don’t think I am good at applying eye makeup, which is part of the reason why you rarely see “selfies” of me on my blog.
There I said it.
That’s the cold hard truth. I always kind of thought I was somewhat decent at eye makeup until I got into this business. Then I started watching some amazing YouTube artists and bloggers and started feeling how completely average my skills are. I don’t think I’m horrible per se, but my skills are at the very basic level. Also you always think you look decent and then you take a photo with an amazing camera and realize, holy hell that is so un-blended it’s not even funny!
I also started becoming hyper-aware of different eye shapes and realized that 95% of the people I followed and loved didn’t have my eye shape or eyelids, which makes it nearly impossible to get the same kind of looks they always show. That bummed me out so I kind of stopped even trying. To be honest, I only wear makeup about 1-2 days a week now.
Working from home has completely changed the way I operate in terms of “getting ready” in the morning. I feel like there is really no point spending time putting on makeup for my cats and dog. Part of this is laziness though. But the other part is the feeling like there is no point to it all. Especially because I’m not taking photos of my face for the blog anyway, so I don’t feel the pressure there either.
But don’t get me wrong. I love makeup still and hoard it like a mo-fo. I like knowing it’s there for me. And I have made half-hearted attempts at practicing blending skills, etc. but it’s hard for me when I’m alone doing it. I learn much better in a classroom setting or with at least one other person showing me the way, rather than just trying to mimic a video by myself.
I guess all this to say that’s the reason why I don’t show my face much around these parts. I do not feel comfortable with my skills and hardly ever wear eye makeup when at home. I always feel guilty when people get excited about maybe an eyeshadow palette I review and say they can’t wait to see the looks I come up with. And then, of course, there are no looks.
Funny enough the two things I am completely comfortable with (nails and lips) are the two things I show a lot of!
I had lofty goals when I quit my job to do this full-time that I would be showing full looks a lot more, but then it just never happened. Maybe one day.
How do you feel about your makeup skills?