It seems fitting that my 40th birthday should fall on a Monday. I have been actively dreading this for about 4 years now. As soon as I hit I think 37, I felt like I was basically 40 already. It was just so close. But now that it’s here, even after all the anticipation and dread, it still feels completely unreal. How did this happen? How the HELL did I get to be middle-aged so fast? No, actually
scratch that. I refuse to say 40 is middle-aged. I mean I still wear Vans and Converse and cargo pants and tee’s on a daily basis! I cannot be FORTY! But I am.
When I was thirteen I remember thinking that forty was SO old. This was when I first discovered Metallica (1985) and I clearly remember wondering if it was even humanely possible to still listen to that type of music at age 40. I mean duh, I knew it was because my dad was older than 40 and he did. But at the time, at age 13, it seemed like at some point there would be this switch where you suddenly had to start listening to classical music instead. And also wear pleated khaki pants. I don’t know where I got those ideas, no one in my family listened to classical music really. Or wore pleated khaki pants.
40 is strange. You spend all your teens and maybe half of your 20’s thinking time is endless. Then you spend your 30’s focusing on career and family things. Maybe getting married, having kids, going to grad school. Finally BLAM, you are 40, and you only JUST started doing something for a living you like. At least that’s my situation. In many ways I feel like I wasted nearly 20 solid years just existing (career-wise) and I am just getting started. On the other hand, I found something I love to do and am doing it now, and how many people get to say that ever? SO I am trying to look on the bright side.
Some things I am grateful for at age 40 (in no order):
- I might be 40, but I sure don’t look like it, thanks to religiously wearing SPF since age 21 or 22, and good genes.
- I am in relatively good health (though I SERIOUSLY need to start working out more and eating better).
- I am definitely young at heart. Sometimes downright juvenile in fact ;).
- I am super happy to have found blogging, and to have the ability to do it for a living.
- I married someone I actually LIKE as a person, and he makes me laugh continuously.
- I have a really cool step-daughter who is funny, smart, and never has an attitude (not yet anyway).
- I have three ridiculously cute furry felines, who I adore.
- I have my own home that I am comfortable in and has “potential”.
- I only have about 3 or 4 real life friends, but I can always count on them.
What 40 looks like:
Here are a bunch of celebrities who have turned or are turning 40 this year. Oh, by the way, I went to junior high and high school with Rebecca Romijn. Trust me when I say, she looks as normal as any of us on a regular day without the hair/makeup/wardrobe people. 🙂
All I can say now is, hello 40’s, please be kind.